This week Brian and I went in for a therapy intake appointment. We didn’t know what to expect and we had our reservations but we hoped for the best. Telling The Story I have talked about our situation many times over the last five months. I'm comfortable talking about it and blogging about it. It … Continue reading Starting Therapy After Our Son’s Suicide
Category: Mom Life
Adding Grad School To The Mix
Life has been hard and complicated so what's a girl to do? I decided to grad school! I had pondered it and I had even started my application but didn't follow through, but one day, I just decided that I was going to officially apply. Of course, I didn't know if I would actually get … Continue reading Adding Grad School To The Mix
Socializing After Losing Your Son
It's been almost 5 months. There were moments that I didn't think I would make it this far. This story is actually from around a month ago but after I wrote it, it sat in my draft folder for all this time. I still want to share it, though. My Night Out I went out … Continue reading Socializing After Losing Your Son
Understanding Life After Losing a Loved One
Here we are, 12 weeks into this grieving process that I never would have willingly signed up for. My son committed suicide and is at peace. (Suicide And The Ones Left Behind) Everyone says that and I believe it. But what about us? We aren't at peace. I'm trying to think of a fancy way … Continue reading Understanding Life After Losing a Loved One
From Suicide To A Widow Maker Heart Attack
They say when it rains, it pours. That has definitely been our experience this year. Or at least since February 10th, the day of my son's suicide. I was going to say that we were just starting to get back to normal when this happened. But that wouldn't be true. We were not back to … Continue reading From Suicide To A Widow Maker Heart Attack
The Truth About Love in Adoption
The adopted child. Is this child loved in the same way as a biological child? Do you love them differently? Do you love them less? Ever since adopting our boys, I have been sensitive to this topic. There has never been a question of whether they were adopted, at least not when my husband was … Continue reading The Truth About Love in Adoption
Understanding Loss: Reflections on My Son’s Memorial
Trigger warning: Suicide It's been 7 weeks since I walked into my son's room and found him hanging from an orange extension cord. It's been 7 weeks since I screamed for Brian and he somehow heard me through sink water running and 3 closed doors. It's been 7 weeks since I abruptly told Antwan that … Continue reading Understanding Loss: Reflections on My Son’s Memorial
Moving On After A Suicide And Dealing With The Trauma
I debated about whether to publish another post about the loss of my son due to suicide. (Here’s the original post.—-> Suicide And The Ones Left Behind) I don't want overdo it but writing helps me and I don't have it in me to write about anything else. Not yet anyway. So please bear with … Continue reading Moving On After A Suicide And Dealing With The Trauma
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