Here we are! The school year is over and I am enjoying my first teacher summer! I say it's my first summer because last year, I missed half of the year and the summer was not like a summer. It was just more days of struggling and wondering if things will ever get easier. This … Continue reading The Year Has Ended!
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Starting Therapy After Our Son’s Suicide
This week Brian and I went in for a therapy intake appointment. We didn’t know what to expect and we had our reservations but we hoped for the best. Telling The Story I have talked about our situation many times over the last five months. I'm comfortable talking about it and blogging about it. It … Continue reading Starting Therapy After Our Son’s Suicide
Socializing After Losing Your Son
It's been almost 5 months. There were moments that I didn't think I would make it this far. This story is actually from around a month ago but after I wrote it, it sat in my draft folder for all this time. I still want to share it, though. My Night Out I went out … Continue reading Socializing After Losing Your Son
Understanding Life After Losing a Loved One
Here we are, 12 weeks into this grieving process that I never would have willingly signed up for. My son committed suicide and is at peace. (Suicide And The Ones Left Behind) Everyone says that and I believe it. But what about us? We aren't at peace. I'm trying to think of a fancy way … Continue reading Understanding Life After Losing a Loved One
Navigating Life After a Heart Attack
When a loved one is in the hospital, it feels like you are in a movie or a tv show. This is my experience, anyway. I find myself noticing similarities and differences between tv shows like Scrubs and my actual experience. It all feels surreal. (This is apparently my favorite word for this saga.) On … Continue reading Navigating Life After a Heart Attack
The Truth About Love in Adoption
The adopted child. Is this child loved in the same way as a biological child? Do you love them differently? Do you love them less? Ever since adopting our boys, I have been sensitive to this topic. There has never been a question of whether they were adopted, at least not when my husband was … Continue reading The Truth About Love in Adoption
Understanding Loss: Reflections on My Son’s Memorial
Trigger warning: Suicide It's been 7 weeks since I walked into my son's room and found him hanging from an orange extension cord. It's been 7 weeks since I screamed for Brian and he somehow heard me through sink water running and 3 closed doors. It's been 7 weeks since I abruptly told Antwan that … Continue reading Understanding Loss: Reflections on My Son’s Memorial
Moving On After A Suicide And Dealing With The Trauma
I debated about whether to publish another post about the loss of my son due to suicide. (Here’s the original post.—-> Suicide And The Ones Left Behind) I don't want overdo it but writing helps me and I don't have it in me to write about anything else. Not yet anyway. So please bear with … Continue reading Moving On After A Suicide And Dealing With The Trauma