Socializing After Losing Your Son

It's been almost 5 months. There were moments that I didn't think I would make it this far. This story is actually from around a month ago but after I wrote it, it sat in my draft folder for all this time. I still want to share it, though. My Night Out I went out … Continue reading Socializing After Losing Your Son

Understanding Life After Losing a Loved One

Here we are, 12 weeks into this grieving process that I never would have willingly signed up for. My son committed suicide and is at peace. (Suicide And The Ones Left Behind) Everyone says that and I believe it. But what about us? We aren't at peace. I'm trying to think of a fancy way … Continue reading Understanding Life After Losing a Loved One

The Truth About Love in Adoption

The adopted child. Is this child loved in the same way as a biological child? Do you love them differently? Do you love them less? Ever since adopting our boys, I have been sensitive to this topic. There has never been a question of whether they were adopted, at least not when my husband was … Continue reading The Truth About Love in Adoption

Understanding Loss: Reflections on My Son’s Memorial

Trigger warning: Suicide It's been 7 weeks since I walked into my son's room and found him hanging from an orange extension cord. It's been 7 weeks since I screamed for Brian and he somehow heard me through sink water running and 3 closed doors. It's been 7 weeks since I abruptly told Antwan that … Continue reading Understanding Loss: Reflections on My Son’s Memorial

I Used To Be More Sensitive To Questions

Emily had this post ready to go, when her family experienced an unimaginable tragedy. While they are working through things, I'm helping to keep the blog's momentum going and publishing on her behalf. This is one of the many heartfelt stories about her family and children you'll find on this blog. Emily will be back … Continue reading I Used To Be More Sensitive To Questions

When Your Kid Is Secure

"Your kids are so lucky!" "You saved them!" These are statements that adoptees despise. I always responded with something to the effect of "we are the lucky ones" or "they saved us." These are meant as such kind comments and these are surely comments that I made myself. But people don't realize that it could … Continue reading When Your Kid Is Secure

Do My Kids Care About New Year’s Eve?

New Year’s Eve stopped being a big deal to me, years ago. In fact, I almost resent its existence because of the pressure to experience it to the fullest. So I basically ignore it now. But I do love celebrating anything and everything with the kids. Almost every year, we have toasted to a random … Continue reading Do My Kids Care About New Year’s Eve?

Did I Give Birth To My Adopted Son?

I was laying in bed, this morning, wishing I could fall back to sleep. And I started randomly thinking about how my son wants to be called Will but Brian and I still insist on calling him William. Well, not insist. I mean, I have tried to switch but it never sticks. So instead, I … Continue reading Did I Give Birth To My Adopted Son?